Elephant in the room

Last night we actually talked about the elephant in the room. Since the 2nd MRI and the notion, again, that what we are dealing with could be MS we haven't talked about it AT ALL. I guess there has been the mention here and there but never really a discussion. Last night however was different. I left for some retail therapy upon leaving I mentioned I need it due to stress and depression. Upon coming home we actually talked! We talked about how life was changing, the guilt he is feeling, and that the reality of us having a child is slipping away. We talked about how yes we could have a child. I don't feel though that I could handle working as a social worker, caring for a child, and caring for a husband. I know with MS that many people are able to control symptoms with medication and lead normal lives. We talked about how Chef would likely have to change jobs. That the mental function and dexterity that it takes to be a chef are both things that are effected most. We cried and processed what all is going on with his health and our future. We don't know what is to come and the fear of that is over whelming.