Recently I went to Helena for work for three days. I loves these work trips. Eventhough they are work I call them "mini vacations": time a hotel, meals out, etc... all paid for by the company. Who wouldn't love that. Oh yeah and no clients ;) I was gone Monday, Tuesday, and returned Wednesday evening. I was actually felt refreshed when I got home! Yep I said it refreshed due to work! Anyway on to the point of this.
I get home to find that Chef made me homemade pizza. WHat a wonderful hubby! We talk and get caught up some then it hits me, this man looks like he has been run over. His eyes were sunken, his body seemed heavy for him, all around he looked like he had been up all night sick with the flu. He tells me he hasn't left the house except to go to work. This isnt like him at all he is a goer, always on the move. His whole affect is flat and depressed. Living with him everyday I haven't seen the change. I knew that he hadnt been feeling well but didnt realize that things were as bad as they are. After about a half hour of me being home he takes off to isolte in the office, he has been doing this alot lately.
The next day a work I really started thinking about everything that has been going on. I realized that I am starting to get really depressed and getting sucked into everything that he is feeling. With the counsle of a wonderful co-worker I realized that it is time for me to seek help for myself so I can learn to balance Chef, myself and his illness. Calls have been made and I'm on the road to a better me in this situation.
I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. Though life may throw you curveballs there is a purpose and reason behind everything life throws at you...however finding that reason and purpose is sometimes the most dificult thing to come to terms with.
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I hope you can both find a away to balance everything. It's so good that you can be strong enough to seek for yourself. I hope Chef is getting some help, too. I'll keep you both in my thoughts.
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